The role of ‘thought’ in our experience of life and the world around us has been a defining understanding over the last few years for me. But it’s never been in such sharp relief as in the last 17 months. I am bemused by the observation of myself seesawing between different worries, concerns and misunderstandings as I try (along with the rest of humanity) to make sense of how we’ve got to where we are.
If I were a rabbit I would wear a rabbit fur. I’d hunker down on all fours. I’d nibble grass and would hide in my burrow at the first sign of danger.
Few of us realise that the loss of an unseen internal organ can be one of lifes major traumas. It may require a grieving process that can last for months or even years. When I found that I needed a hysterectomy for recurrence of pre-cancerous cells, like many women I had strong feelings about losing my womb. I feared, irrationally, that it would diminish me as a woman and that sex would be different.
Remember my feeling of something (event) being imminent, well during my crop circle weekend I started to do a lot of dowsing. Dowsing is something I have been using for a couple of years now, but I haven’t really been completely confident in my own intuitive sense. That all changed this weekend, I feel in some ways as if I have ‘been woken-up’ maybe it was the ‘Keys to the Acturians’ presentation that I went to on the Saturday night.
Well, what a weekend; if it could go wrong, it went wrong and at one point my friend Mary and I really felt as if we were being given a very strong message that we weren’t supposed to be in Marlborough for the crop circle conference.
Have you discovered Cosmic Ordering yet? No, well I first heard about when I was doing the Race for Life for Cancer Research UK (I raised £55.00), as a friend and I walked the 5k course together … I know that means that I am very unfit and I really should be fitter – but we can’t be brilliant at everything now can we?
Your Inner or Soul’s Urge: This is spiritual and emotional expression more than physical. It is your heart-felt desires, your incentive, how you look at life. Here are your areas of personal satisfaction. Number: 1
In 2001 I had the feeling that something was going to happen that would change the world forever, in the February it got so bad that I even sold my house because of it – and nothing seemed to happen….. until September 11th when we had the attacks on the World Trade Centre and the Pentagon.
What is it about the number 7? I’d really like to get a definitive answer to this one so if anyone out there has the lowdown, please do let me know.